Four more days and my husband will be home from Iraq! Yes, the deployment is coming to an end and I have been given the opportunity to reflect on this short waiting period. Everyone keeps asking me if I am excited that he's coming home. Emails, letters, comments on myspace, phone calls! Everyone is asking me or telling me that I should be or will be excited. While, yes of course, I am excited the elation hasn't really hit me yet.

I know that everyone is being extremely nice and that they are trying to show me that they care. But how would you feel if everyday everyone asks you if you are excited? What I want to say sometimes is duh! Sometimes I want to say no. Obviously I don't mean this to be rude but man it can be too much sometimes.

One example that may clear up the confusion so that you don't think I'm a heartless witch is when you tell your friends that you like cats. I don't particularly care for cats but let's just say you like cats. Now every gift you ever get from anyone is going to somehow be related to cats. Even though you probably meant to say you like YOUR cat and you think SOME cats are cute, suddenly you are the crazy cat person who has cat memorabilia coming out of your ass. Pretty soon, the idea of cats drives you up the wall, and fluffy has a new home.

So to answer everyone's questions repeatedly, yes I am excited. I'm excited, scared, anxious, and I'm not sleeping. But you don't really care about all that detail right? You just want the requisite answer, yes. So here is how I'm really feeling, you asked, so now you are going to sit there and take it! I mean this lovingly of course.

By not sleeping I mean I'm having bad dreams. I had a dream last night that I forgot him at the flight-line. He knocks on the door with bags in his arms and is like WTF?

I had another dream where he got out of his jet with two other women and they were his OTHER wives.

I'm scared that he's going to hate the old and yet somewhat new life he's coming back to.

I'm scared that he's going to take one look at me and say, "that's my wife?"

I'm anxious because no one likes waiting.

And yes, I'm extremely excited, to finally have my everything back home and safe.

Now I'm crying and Shawna (also from Faster than the World) is calling me a pussy

Andrea is not a pussy..she is just excited.

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